12.31.2012

This Is What You Do

One song that's meant a lot to me this year is "This is what you do" from Bethel Music. I walked into a new church back in August and as they were singing the song, I started crying. I began to weep. It's an uptempo song and so many are celebrating, jumping up and down, and shouts of praise. I didn't know what was going on and so I went home and looked up the song. And just from playing it online, I cried for 20 minutes straight. Here are the lyrics: It's always like springtime with You, making all things new Your light is breaking through the dark This love it is sweeter than wine Bringing joy, bringing life Your hope is rising like the dawn This is what You do, this is what You do You make me come alive This is what You do, this is what You do You make me come alive This is what You do, this is what You do You make me come alive This is what You do, this is what You do You make me come alive, You make me come alive You make me come alive, You make me come alive You make me come alive, You make me come alive You make me come alive, You make me come alive It's like I'm living for the first time Finally living for the first time I believe it was my spirit longing for the new life Jesus promised ... So let's take a look back at 2012. I left my job in full-time ministry, took one of the biggest leaps of faith in my life, and I'm now a life coach. This is the first year of my blog where I did not post until today. I had a few writings on deck but never felt they were quite right to publish. But I do want to end the year with gratitude. Thankful that God was patience with me. Thankful that my life is coming back. There were days I felt like a zombie. There were days where the only prayer I could muster was "God whatever happens, just promise me You'll never let go of my hand." I had some amazing friends and a supportive family who came through in the clutch. I'm making some new friends to start the next chapter of my life. My gifts are getting an upgrade and that's exciting. I'm trying new things that I've never done before and I'm hopeful. I went back to Kentucky and Virginia last month and it was an emotional time. I spent the first 30 years of my life in those places. But for now it's time to move on to the next chapter, the next sequel of my life. There was heartache, pain, fear, shame, but also hope, laughter, gratefulness, and love. And so for now, in my one and only post of the year, I pray that 2013 is the year I turn the corner in many areas of my life. May I become more than what I ever thought I would be. And may I come truly come alive. Amen.